MY NAME IS BEASTY

MY NAME IS BEASTY
but Iam not the beast :|

This is a very hilarious incident which happened when I was 6 years old.
My sister and I were thinking of some nick names for me. Akki, Akku were very common and boring names. So we were deeply thinking of some good nick names.
I don't remember if I was also thinking about the names. I mean...come on..I was six then. I might have used my little brain. Suddenly Appu got an idea and said,'How about beasty'??
I felt it quite bizzare by it as I didn't know what it meant.

Me : Hmm, it's nice but what's the meaning of beasty.

Appu : (Giggling)...well...it means good,intelligent and talented girl.

I wasn't sure about the definition but I felt the name quite good...Beasty...yeah good!

So, finally we decided my nick name. The whole day my sister was calling me 'beasty'.. 'beasty' and I naively replied, 'yeah' 'yeah'..'say'...

At night my dad came home from his office and we both kids were very excited that we jumped on him...checking his pocket and hands as we always expected some candies and lollipops.
Then my sister said to me, 'Beasty,why don't you ask dad about the meaning of beasty. He can define it in fine words and tomorrow you can proudly tell your friends about your new nick name and its meaning'.

Like an innocent girl I asked dad about the meaning of it..Then my dad replied, 'Beasty means Buffalo'!

I went nuts with its meaning..and my sis was ROTFLing and told dad the whole story...my dad smiled and said,'You silly kids'!

Fine...the word isn't actually a buffalo. It has some naughty meanings ;)
To make a 6 year old girl understand my dad said that...
So....I became the bakra of that day and from then my sister calls me beasty and even now.

That day I felt angry on my sister but now when I remember that incident I always laugh at it. My all college friends know about this so they tease me...


What are you thinking of?...okay fine..even you get the privilege.. :D

Learn cooking.It's fun!!

Learn cooking...It's fun!

I got to realise this after my boards when I was completely free for around 60 days.As I had nowhere to go,I tried to learn something good from the chef,my mom :)
And also a cook book helped me.I tried out some exotic and delicious dishes from the recipe book. And to my surprise the item would be even more delicious than the one my mom prepares.So now she has no fear of my safety if I'm near the stove or the gas cylinder preparing something. If it is a Sunday,the kitchen is reserved on my name giving a holiday to my dear mom.

Many of them think that cooking is a garelu thing (housewife stuff).But they don't know how foolish they are by thinking so.Didn't get?? Let me give you an example:

Suppose you want to study in abroad...you say good bye to your parents and also to the delicious love-filled dishes made by mom.You hardly get the Indian tasty items there.Sandwich,burger is the routine item in foreign places.We too like those fast foods but we can't eat that always :-/

And it's difficult to pay for food you eat each and everytime.Now I get to know why maximum of the foreigners are fit and slim.Even they don't like the food there, so they eat less :D But,if you have the cooking skill you can make your own dishes anytime and eat.We like to be independent for everything.Why not in this too? Homemade foods are pure and healthy, i think we all know this. Another thing just screws me up. 'Cooking is a girl thing' :-/ hello! let me remind you one thing that whenever we go to any restaurants or 5star hotels, we hardly see a woman working there. 99.9% of the chefs are men .So, this has proven that cooking is neither a male thing nor a female thing.It's for everybody.Like everyone eats, everyone should cook and learn cooking.I am not forcing you to cook. It's your wish.But cooking is not a low job.It's so much fun like playing.

Now let me stick to my headline.

Cooking is like doing a chemistry experiment.If you are a bio student then I think I am successful in my mission of explaining how fun-filled cooking is:adding chopped vegetables,water some spicy ingredients and you are done :) It's more easy than saying.Seriously!








'Do what you love! love what you do'! If you don't love cooking, try to love it.

Hint : Check out the film 'Ratatouille'.It's an awesome and an inspirational movie on cooking. After watching it the first thing I did was COOKING! :D

If you did watch it but don't like to cook then you are worthless to live :-/

Sorry for that. But one thing is true-

'A chef is hidden in each and everyone'.Some realise it lately.So try to wake up the hidden chef in you and enjoy cooking. Happy cooking! :)

THE REMNANTS OF MY LOVE

Gulabo! Gulabo! Come here....

Gulabo: Yes mam..

Me: Get the red file.It's in the cupboard.

Gulabo:Okay mam...


My cupboard used to be very untidy.Filled with piles of files,documents,papers everything related to my office work.I never got time to tide it up nor I said to any of the servants to do so.As they are important things,they can be careless.But after that car accident, my legs were hurt.So I had to take the help of Gulabo,my faithful servant.


Gulabo: Sorry mam! some letters and photographs fell down.

Me: No problem Gulabo. Pick them and keep it inside.

Gulabo: Okay..


While i was busy in my work,Gulabo was picking the letters and photographs and keeping inside the shelf.Once she just turned the photograph and said...


Gulabo: Mam! you are looking beautiful in this photo

Me: What do you mean Gulabo. Don't I look beautiful now..

Gulabo: Ofcorse mam! you do....Mam! who is this person with you...I've never seen this person before...

Me: What???..wait i'm coming...

Gulabo: No mam! it would hurt..let me come..

Me: Gulabo! let me be independent. Atleast let me roll my wheel chair by myself..

I was completely shocked when i saw the photo.It was like the world was paused for a moment..

Me: RRRRR...Rahul!!!!

Gulabo: Rahul?? Mam..who is this Rahul?

Me: Gulabo! will you please give me a minute

Gulabo: ahah...sure mam..i'll ready for the dinner


I couldn't just believe that i saw him again, in a photo...all the memories of the past were refreshened.That was the photo of us when we were on a trip to Kulu Manali. I met Rahul in Kulu and there the story begun.
It was about seven years back and I was 20 then.I went to Kulu Manali with my friends and I met Rahul there.Handsome,honest,intelligent and a very responsible person.These were the qualities I got to know about him.As time passed we were deeply in love each other..but one question of Rahul..it annoyed me and ruined everything..
***
Rahul: Sanjana! Don't you think we should give our relation a name??

Sanjana: What do u mean Rahul? we love each other.What else is needed.

Rahul: I mean...ahh...the marriage..i think we should get married.

Sanjana: What??

Rahul: Yes Sanju! I can't wait more..and anyways..we had to do this one day, why not now..

Sanjana: Have you lost it? I mean...i'm just 20..there are many ambitions..many dreams in my life..i'm not ready to become a bride and all...

Rahul: But Sanju..you can do this even after marriage..

Sanjana: Ya but....NO!! Rahul...and my dad is paying a lot for my studies..i always give first priority to studies.. dad sent me here in the hope that i wouldn't do anything wrong..coz he trusts on me

Rahul: Then what now?? You wanna say that everything is over??

Sanjana: Did I say that?? wait for some years..i would be completing my studies then and i'll tell about us to dad..

Rahul: Years?? What do you think of me Sanjana??..am i a toy for you?? Don't you care of my feelings?? my emotions??

Sanjana: As if you take care of everything.You are also not trying to understand me..i'm not ready for marraige and all...

Rahul: You should think about all this before loving me..

Sanjana: What do you mean..it was my wrong??

Rahul: No Sanju! it was my wrong to fall in love with you..and thankyou so much..it's not late though..
Goodbye Sanjana...our minds are incompatibe...let's finish all this here...

Sanjana: You just can't leave me like this...RAHUL! listen to me..RAHUL!! RAHUL!..

He suddenly disappeared and never returned....

***
As i was coming back to reality..i noticed burly tears on my cheeks...

I saw another photograph of us...with a small kid..

***

Rahul: Look Sanjana, he is so cute..

Sanjana: yeah! very sweet...let's capture this moment..

Rahul: But their parents...i think they would bother...

Sanjana: Why would they mind..okay before they see us...let's capture it......okay......say CHEESE!!!

***
Rahul likes kids a lot.He also told me about his charity.He impressed me with it..
While i was keeping all the photographs back in the shelf..i noticed some love letters which Rahul wrote for me...'Love' 'Care' 'Promises'...he wrote half of the letter related to that...I got to know that 'Writing on a paper' and 'Actually doing it in life' are both very different.

Times passed,but not the love which I had for him.I loved
him,love him and keep loving him till my last breath...though i passed on the marraige age...i wanted to live alone as it is impossible for me to think of someone else in my life.I was wondering...what is he doing now?? Does he still love me?? Did he marry someone else??..Is he there??

I didn't get any answers to my questions but I noticed his mobile number back of one of the photographs...and again a few questions...
Shall I dial??
Will he lift the phone??
Is this still his no.??
What will i say when he speaks??
My heat started beating fast when i dialed the no.

9440330394.....
tring..tring..tring.....Hello!!!

My breath stopped for a moment when i heard his voice.Same voice..sweet voice...

Rahul: Hello!! who is this??

Sanjana: aaah.....hhhellloo!!!!

Rahul: Hello...Who??

................................................

Rahul: Sanjana???

I felt like 'i never felt before' when i heard my name from him.

Sanjana: Rahul..

Rahul: Sanjana!!! Is it you?? My god!!! I just can't believe this

Sanjana: You still remember me...??

Rahul: Ya ofcorse...are you stupid?? Why would I forget you...


I was like in the seventh heaven when I got to know that he still remembers me...I just wanted to unhidden all the truth which i hid it from the world. I always used to be rude and rough to others..employees, servants, friends and family..for which iam all alone in this world...i was living in the dark till now...but no more...i just wanted him back in my life...i wanted to say sorry for all the mistakes i did...he just wanted to tie me in a beautiful relation ship...but I had been selfish and was thinking all about myself...Today I have everything..name,fame luxury..everything but not love..not Rahul...
Before I was going to reveal everything I heard someone's voice on the phone..
'Rahul..dinner is ready..come fastly...
Rahul felt a little bit uncomfortable with it an said in a slow voice..'Ya...iam coming'..

Sanjana: ammm...is she your mom??

Rahul : ahhhh....no...no...

Sanjana : Iam wondering who she is...

Rahul : ahhhh...Sssanjana....ssshe is my......my wife....Pooja..

A biggest shock I got in my life.It was like all the hopes had broken

Sanjana: Ohhh....wife....aah..good..great...

Rahul: We got married 3 years back...

Sanjana: Ohh....good (weeping)

Rahul : aahh..so..Sanjana...how are you??...Did you??

Sanjana: No Rahul, iam still single...

Rahul: What??..but why?

Sanjana: ahh...kk..I got to go...byee Rahul...miss you...lov------

I shut the phone before completing my line..

Rahul: Hello..sanjana??...are you there??...SANJU!!!!


My last hope, the last person in this world whom i care..i've lost him. Rahul is happy with his new family.But I...I have no one.But he did the right thing.We can get fame and luxuries anytime but once if you ignore your relationships...they won't come back.
A relationship is like a rubber band.You can stretch it as much as you want but when you leave it,it hurts a lot.
As I was wiping my tears, I saw Gulabo coming with the dinner plate..

Gulabo: Mam! the dinner..

Sanjana: Ya! Iam coming. And Gulabo..is there any festival tomorrow??

Gulabo: aaah...no mam..but why?

Sanjana: there isn't any?...no matter...inform all the servants the news that Sanjana Malhotra is giving everyone a week holiday.Would that be enough Gulabo??

Gulabo: (shocked..and dropped the dinner plate) whaaaaaaaat??

Sanjana: That would be little i guess...how about 3 weeks...??

Gulabo: Mam!! are you alright??

Sanjana: Ya..i'm completey alright dear...and about the holidays..ya iam serious about it.And gulabo!! Iam extremely sorry for not giving a single holiday for Dusherra.Tell that to everyone that iam sorry for it and these holidays.....think that iam paying back for what you've done to me these years..

Gulabo: (crying) Mam!!!

Sanjana: I know that iam new and strange today..but i learnt a lesson today Gulabo.And iam extremely sorry for all the rudeness which i showed to all of you...

Gulabo: No mam!! it's the god grace that we got a chance to serve you.

The servants who were hiding and listening to all the talk..were also completely shocked of the sudden change...

All: Sanjana jiii...live long!!....sanjana jii..live long..

I saw Rahul's photo and said in just one word..THANKYOU.....and rolled my wheel chair to the dinner table.

I REALISED IT...BUT I'S NOT TOO LATE :)

HEY!! TOMORROW IS SUNDAY.WEEK'S ONE HOLIDAY.YO!!', i said that to one of my friend yesterday during our lunch break around 12:20pm. We all folks were very happy,enjoyed our lunch break by sharing each other's food, chit-chatting,playing antakshari and sleeping for 6min before the study hours start.
MATHS STUDY HOURS 12:40pm: Mam gave us some sums in the morning and told us to do in study hours.So, like good students we started solving it. It was not difficult and boring though.Challenging something new and tuff things is actually very exciting.But when the battle get's down in the middle we take the help of our pals.The same thing i did. I started clarrifying my doubts with my friends and vice-versa and atlast we got everything completed
****
ENGLISH PERIOD 3:20 (LAST PERIOD): That was like a fun period for us. Mam was teaching some 14 reel story 'prince and the pauper'.I've alread watched it but the name was 'Barbie as the princess and the pauper'. I kinda felt it as the same one..only the gender was the difference. So i started showing off saying,'I know that story re'...But still i wanted to listen to it. Mam's accent and the way of teaching, we all found it funny.She was the new teacher for 12th class. 'hey Divya! What's the time?' i asked her. She replied,'3:40'. I was feeling very bored and irritating as the story and the time was going like ekta kapoor's serials. Endless and nothing exciting.'Throw your watch in some trash-bin',i replied. 4:15..Atlast it was the 'samaptaha' :D
'Enjoy your sunday buddies. Meet you on Monday...I said and vice-versa and left the place.
***
FINALLY...IT'S SUNDAY...the day for relaxing and enjoying for 12th students. I was in no mood to go out or enjoy with my friends, so i wanted to stay at home resting for all the day......Now let me go in brief :D 12:40...i usually do lunch at 1 or 2....but my family, means mom,dad and sis.Appu is in hostel. Mom and dad were starting to do lunch calling me 'akki..akki' come on!!! otherwise your dad would eat all the curry.That was the way i used to be trapped before..long long ago...anyways i would be feeling bored of eating alone so i started eating. I never ever in my whole life felt about my college or thought about my college when i wasn't in my college.But today,the very first time i was thinking about it, about our lunch period when we all cronies eat together fastly as there is a limited time for our lunch hours.Mom always keeps my fav items and in the way i like to..ab ye maa ki mamta hain..no comments!!!..but now..i would have to do everything myself :/ at college we used to sit at one place and enjoy our eating.But now i have to make tetra trips from the dining hall to my room THE T.V and A.C centre.....sometimes i do extra rounds when i forget to take the drinking water and salt for my curd rice. And in contrast, mom used to keep everything if i'm in college..The drinking water..the ingredients for taste, all ready before me as if i'm having the royal lunch. How can our sri chaitanya college give us holiday without giving home work?? NO CHANCE!!..so i started doing my HW right in afternoon so that i can enjoy my evening sitting before lappy or t.v. But the moment i started, doubts were raising like a volcano.A question mark face appeared when i saw those matrix problems. It was an easy chapter but i felt bored of solving it alone. I wished to be at college with my friends and discuss our doubts..SHOCKING!!! i wish to be in college!!! LOL!. Now..let me get into it more briefly :D *** Sometimes we like the things which we unlike before..Best example-My college.I used to hate it in 11th class as i coudn't adjust myself with new fellows,the timings, the teachers etc.But now i got jilled-milled in it. So to like or adjust in something or with someone may take a long time but the result is always positive.This was the message i recieved and i wolud like to convey it to everyone :)

MARCH 30....my birthday and a full moon day

'THE ARRIVAL OF THE CRESCENT
THAT'S MY BEST B'DAY PRESENT
For me
it is a god, to which I pray
welcoming me with happiness in a tray
It is the best b'day
that coloured my life which was in grey

Oh my dear
on this new year
your arrival is thrice
right on my b'day, very nice

I see you every night
you are curvea form of louve
as the lovely dove

The curve of yours

is like a smiling face
blessing me
which is impossible to trace

On the night of march thirty
you kinda get lil flirtyfrom crescent you change into a full moon

Stupendously you are a boon

Seeing you gives me zeal
never leave me alone
it's my ardent appeal

Watching you reminds me of him
which makes my eyes to brim 

you are the moon which shines and lightens the dark
and he is my moon who shines and lightens the darkest side of my heart

You are my best pal
sky dotted with stars and your presense
creates an effect of the ball

Where if by chance
I and him do the dance
nattering all around
and going round and round and round and round

He is a guy of my schooling
very charming,my heart keeps alarming
for now on his absence
i keep blooming

The love for him is all pure
we would meet someday that's for sure
for tonight, you are the special guest
let's enjoy on my b'day and forget the rest

You are my only crony
no matter if people find me looney
THE ARRIVAL OF THE CRESCENT
THAT'S MY BEST B'DAY PRESENT

The Four Net Friends

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The scraps which everyone are allowed to read.....;)

RANDOM THOUGHTS. NOTHING CONNECTED WITH MY LIFE

It's been two months that i've been talking to him. A stranger before but a good friend now. Actually, i don't know anything about him except a few things like his name, location ,school, and his good friend Meena nd also a good friend of mine..hopefully!!
He lives is Colaaba, class 12th and just two mention iam of the same class. I was stuck with my pre-final exams then... so for two weeks, i was off from the net. But many times , i keep thinking about him. I've seen his photos.He looks very good. When he asks for my photos, i give excuses like, sorry!!..my sister warned me not to show photos...It's not in the pc, i'll scan and show them soon...
Though i know that i look good, i never felt comfortable to show him my pics...
Now as my excuses were taking a long period, he must be thinking that i don't look that good- i thought in that way.
I keep thinking about him often. Our talks, secrets, chit-chats, all were like plugged into my ears. In the last page of my note book i scribble, draw pictures, do my signature a 10 times, write my sister name and mine with sur names and sometimes write his name but to half Tan..and then i complete it with my name Tanya..only the 'may' was missing. Don't get puzzled too much, his name his Tanmay...
Don't know why but i feel very shy and afraid of even writing his name. Well...his name his already written in my heart. Keep thinking that...i'm i expecting too much from him?? from my life??...
But when it comes to studies, i keep 99.9% concentration only on it. That's only the good and the greatest point in me...guess so!!!

My exams were finally finished. I was feeling very happy as i will be getting the net and can talk to him. I rushed to my home. Went to my room, opened the pc, comforted myself in a chair and connected the broadband....

Dailing BSNL broadband....
I kept waiting, my heart was beating very fast,....oh! please god..please....

621 Error......


no!!!....please..what the hell??..can't be...for 2 weeks i was waiting....bloody crap!!!

I started scratching my head. Don't know what was the problem. Every wires were right. If loose, i tighted them again and again. I went runniing to my dad.. I was feeling very afraid because dad was always against me using the net. But luckily he was in a good mood..

Me: Daddy!.. the net is not connecting..

Dad: oh! did you put the wires correctly??

Me: Yes daddy, i did

Dad: Did you tighten the wires??

Me: Yes

Dad: Wait dear! it needs some time to connect, and how did you perform
in pre-final exams??
Now that was not the right question and not the right time.

Me: very well daddy! could you.....

Dad: Really??

Me: daddy! i'll tell you after i get the results. Now please come to my room and check theproblem..I beg of you
Dad: Wait for some time. I have to make an urgent call

Me: Daddy! please come.. it will take only a minute..please!..
Dad: Okay!..let's go..

Me: You are my best daddy, thanks!..did mom tell you that from right angle you look like Robert Pattinson......


So with great keen watch, checking again the wires, doing something magical and secretable, he CONNECTED IT!!!
Must say...he is very great. I never ask him how he did or what he did, as i had only with the matter that it got connected
So i went to the site, typed my id and password and clicked ENTER. Though slow but at last everything was alright. I was expecting scraps from him. I got a new add request, 'Hi! iam Tanmay's classmate'.
I didn't answer that, i went to watch my scrapbook, but there were none scraps from him. I just saw his 'bye' scrap when we talked two weeks back. I felt like a crap. Atleast he should have scrapped me, should have asked the reason why i wasn't online for weeks. Guess, i was expecting much from him. I went back and saw again the request..'Hi! iam Tanmay's classmate Sanjay..Randomly, i added him, saw his profile, he was also looking good. But i didn't care about it... i wanted to see Tanmay's scraps... he was chatting with Meena. I sent 'hi' to both of them. It had been 10 min that i scrapped but i didn't get reply from both of them. They were sending scraps to each other but didn't send me. I just thought 'Bloody Hell' and went back to my scrapbook. I saw sanjay's scrap just a minute ago...
Hi Tanya! how are you?I hate that question as everyone asks that...very common..just for timepass, i replied, 'ya! iam fine...what about you?
Sanjay: I'm fine too. So you're from?

Me: Bangalore! so you are Tanmay's classmate?
Sanjay: Ya! and Meena's too. I guess you are a very good friend of
Tanmay, right?

Me: What made you think so?

Sanjay: Just asking.. i see ur scraps often in his scrapbook.

Me: That's very bad! You shouldn't read other's scraps.

Sanjay: Hey! I don't read them. I just glance at them. Anyways!
everyone does read other's scraps.

Me: Ya! i should accept that :D
After 15 min of conversation, Meena sent a scrap.....
Meena: Hi Tanya, how are you??
I thought that what made her remind of me suddenly..??
Me: I'm fine...and you? How is your college life?

I waited for eight minutes, she didn't reply me...and then Tanmay scrapped..

Tanmay: Hi Tanya! How are you dear? didn't talk with you for a long
time..
I actually melt at his scraps.
Me: I'm fine dear. I was online from half an hour. But why didn't you reply??

Tanmay: Did you send a scrap?
Me: ya! ofcorse!
Tanmay: oh sorry Tanya!, i didn't notice your scrap. Actually i was talking to Meena....

Me: So????
Tanmay: What so Tanya? I told you once that i like Meena right? So i was talking to her. I am very happy Tanu.....
Now this definetly broke my heart. He mentioned once that he likes her, but i thought that he might be not so serious about it
Me: Oh!! I forgot!! So you are happy na....you happy...me happy..Talk to her...

Tanmay: She has gone, she told that she has to go to a party with her friends.

Me: Oh! You should have also gone with her....
Tanmay: ya! she asked me..but actually iam not in a mood to go out.

Me: Okay!!!

Tanmay: Anyways! bye Tanya...

Me: bye!!!

Now everything was clear like a crystal. Guess i have expected much from him. Between all this i didn't notice the scrap sent by Sanjay...17 min ago...

Sanjay: I've read your blog..simply to say i'm your great fan..i keep reading them..
That was very sweet one. I told about my blog to Tanmay but he never asked about it.

Me: Sorry to reply late...i'm glad that you liked it..and fan??what are you saying? i'm just an oky-doky blogger :D
In 0 mintues he replied....

Sanjay: No! i admire you..you are simply great..your recent story made me your fan...how come you be so imaginative?....imagination or..... ;)

Me: 100% imagination... i never felt anything like that in real...
Sanjay: hmmm...but i guess you have feelings for Tanmay....
I deleted the scrap the time i recieved it

Me: What??

Sanjay: I'm sorry Tanya! but actually i just wanted to advice you onething. Stop feeling for him or else it will hurt a lot..

Me: Why???

Sanjay: He's a very good friend of mine...but he loves Meena...

Me: ya! he told me that...But does Meena love him?
Sanjay: I don't know that..

Me: Leave the bloody hell! talk something else..

Sanjay: ya! even i wanted to say that..so, what do you aspire to become?

Me: a film director..

Sanjay: Hey!! me too... i knew you would choose something like that..

Me: That's great..so we can become gud competitors..right?

Sanjay: Maybe!! but your's will be the best..
I actually liked our conversation...it was like an elixer to my wound....
Sanjay: Hey Tanya!! sorry!! i have to go..byee!!...

Me: Okay!!....bye!!..
Within three weeks..me and Sanjay became good friends....

Sanjay: Hey!! can i ask your no.??
I was uncomfortable with that question..guess he knew that so he immediately sent another scrap after that..
Sanjay: Only SMS...i guarantee that...

Me: okay!..it's 9440330394....

Sanjay: Hey!! can i see ur photo?...just casually..
Tanmay also asked that question. But i don't know why..when it comes to showing photos..i always step -a-back...So i simply told just to get crap out of that...

Me: I don't look good...
Now any guy would definetly not ask after that...i guess guys like Tanmay would surely not even chat....

Sanjay: i don't care about it...i just want to see because you are my good friend......
I felt then good and an 100% belief that nothing would go wrong...so i mailed him my photos....after 5 min he replied...

Sanjay: What???

Me: Told naa...!! i don't look good..

Sanjay: I mean..what?? how?? How can a girl be so beautiful???

Me: Really??

Sanjay: ofcorse!!.... i like you even more now ;)
That was something very romantic to hear and that too from a good looking guy..

Me: I never felt that...
Sanjay: Trust me!! you are very cute.. if you would have shown your photo to tanmay earlier...Meena would definetly be out of his mind..she is nothing compared to you...
I felt like i was in the seventh heaven...in short i like Sanjay more than Tanmay...Sanjay was very sweet friend..Always we spend time together by chatting, playing online games...he actually looses to make me win...always replies in time and whenever i say a particular time to come online, he would be 10 min before...till now he never called me as he had to keep up his promise...so one day, i called him...

Sanjay: Hey!! Tanya!! your no. is flashing on the screen..is it you? i can't believe it? but you don't like to call naa? How?? Why??

Me: My god Sanjay!!...now tell me for which question i should answer..:D

Sanjay: oh sorry!! i'm completely shocked....

Me: Cool down!! to mention your voice is very matured and hot..;)

Sanjay: And your's is very sweet...
From then we talked often..sharing secrets, jokes, ideas, imaginations and suggestions for blogging...etc...
I saw a scrap of Tanmay which i didn't notice as i was talking to Sanjay...

Tanmay: Hi! how are you? actually you were right Tanya..you warned me to stay away from love..really...love hurts...I've heard that Meena loves someone else..she betrayed me..i've no friend...you are my only friend..
Again a scrap of Tanmay...
Tanmay: Are you there Tanya? Why do u talk much with Sanjay?? You are my friend naa..
It was everything clear that Tanmay was just using me...iam just a toy for timepassing...and throw off when mood's off...Now that Meena is not in his life,he realized, and remembered that he has a stupid friend who used to be mad of him, wasted her time thinking about him..to mention, these were all earlier and my past..i don't have any feelings for him now....so i scrapped back..

Me: sorry to reply late...iam talking to my close friend..and actually i was wrong..Love never hurts unless we choose a right person........iam saying all this because.....iam in........LOVE....:)

The bountiful love

LOVE is something which....happens....it can't be expressed but can only be felt. But when the same LOVE is expressed in money, the bliss changes into a hell....Read this story....story of a loving couple and their life in hot water...how about an ice cafechino???...and that too for all free ;)

'Sarah..Sarah..
Tujpe ye dil haraa..
Tere adaaye ne mujko maara..
Tu hain mere ankhon ka taara..
Tere bin main hu besahaara..
Ek taraf tu aur dusri taraf ye duniya saara..'

The most irrititating poem sung by Rohit, as he sings the same one everyday.But still i kind of feel it sweet :)
From past two years,Rohit tried to give all the luxuries by pulling out all the stops.I know that he loves me very much but he never tried to understand me, never understood that what all i want from him is his love and his saath...

But Rohit always thought that i was unadjustable with him as i come from a rich family. In short,we both are uncompatible but we love each other.....
I still remember the day when he bought a chaffinch on our first anniversary.


I always tell him that i love singing birds. So,he bought one. It kind of looked like an expensive one but as i always say, he is in the habit of putting himself in a tight squeeze. But to give him his due, he's a very loving and caring husband :)

After that things were getting quite bad. Rohit lost his job as he didn't show up much in his office.
Rohit is kind of crafty man. He always skips his work and passes the buck. But the desire to make money made him to take a wrong turn....

We were in a financial debt, as he took a fat loan to buy a bungalow and gift it to me for my birthday.

He never told me that he took a loan. When i asked him about the bungalow, he told me that it was a gift from his company. But i was not sure about it so he started leading me a dance.

Rohit knows his onions that by doing all this he could be in a fine pickle. But to make me happy he kept himself to himself. To keep up with the joneses, he started becoming a gadget freak. If i would have known all this from the scratch, i would have tried to tell him that i never longed for luxuries or gadgets or any material life. All i wanted from him was only his love and saath....




My silence has ruined our life. The bountiful love he showed me brought us in a fix......